"SAFE"

by Greg Farnum

Fragile looking, small. "Sir, is your son Michael upstairs?" Jillian asked, ears poking out of straight blond hair like an ingenue from Mighty Mouse. "I don't know, I'll call up and see." In a moment Michael appeared at the top of the stairs and began to descend, hesitantly. "Hello Mike," she said, smiling. They were the smallest and youngest at Mike's sister's birthday party, moving quietly and carefully among the other kids like larger versions of the two house cats. Tom only heard her when she came to complain to Kathy about the older kids sitting in a circle in the family room, holding hands and trying to levitate. "They're messin' with stuff they don't understand," she said. She told of a case she knew where kids had done that sort of thing and lived to regret it. She also reported that standing in front of a mirror calling for "Bloody Mary," which some of the kids were talking about doing, was dangerous. "It's OK," Tom told her, "I'll watch 'em." Later, when the party was over and their kids were asleep, Kathy said "She got him to sing her a song." "Really?" Mike was musical they always said, but Michael didn't share his songs with everyone. They got together a couple of times after that, both times at her house. She gave Mike a ring and a small stuffed animal. "Mike's sister told me he likes stuffed animals," she said, smiling, when he came to pick Mike up. It was a little dog. A cute little dog. Mike smiled. "I told him he didn't need to have a girlfriend right now if he didn't want to," said Kathy, the cold suburban street outside their livingroom window just moonlight and snow. "Yeah?" He agreed but thought, perhaps, she was butting in. "He told me all this going steady stuff made him uncomfortable. I told him you can just be friends, you don't have to be boyfriend and girlfriend." "Yeah, they are awfully young, even for now days." Kathy's position hardened when, a week later, Jillian's sixteen year old sister called while everyone was getting ready for school and work and berated Mike for seeming to like Jillian's (slightly) older sister better than he liked Jillian. A two-timer. A little creep. He'd better not... "That's it!" said Kathy in the darkened livingroom where they retired to relive, or forget, the events of the day. "All those girls over there are boy crazy." He listened intently, having missed the import of the morning's conversation, busy getting more coffee and choking himself tying his tie. "They spend all their time worrying about who likes who," she said. "All those girls over there, they've got nothing better to do. 'You better not mess with my sister!' That sort of shit. And at his age. They're in grade school. It's ridiculous! He's not going over there any more. If I wanted my kids to associate with people like that I would have stayed in Warren." "So," he said, opening what should be his last beer given the fact that it was a work night, "they're not all related, right? Who belongs to who?" "She's divorced. Those boys belong to the guy she's going to marry. Her husband was some kind of shithead I think. Some kinda drunken bum who got in trouble I think. Now she works and goes to law school at night. I've got to hand it to her for that, and with all those kids in the house." And that's how it was, except that when it came time for his birthday party at Pizza Palace Mike wanted her to come. She showed up all smiles and accompanied Mike through the maze of electronic games, collecting tickets to be redeemed for plastic prizes. She stuck close by him and Mike didn't seem to mind a bit. Afterwards it was back home, kids running upstairs and down talking about school and families and pop stars -- some suck, some don't. Jillian had the best story: "My dad wears an electronic tether because he drank too much. When the phone rings he better get his butt off the couch and answer it or they'll take him to jail. They did that once already." "No," said Kathy later, "that's the guy who's there now. The guy her mom's going to marry." "I had a good time," said Jillian, all smiles and reflected light in the passenger seat as he drove her home in the thick winter darkness. Then, when they stopped at a red light on Rochester Road, she said, "I want to be a cop when I grow up. When you're a cop you can help people. "That's good," he said to her, turning on to Auburn Road, the road that led to her street. "Yeah, you can solve crimes and help people and fight the bad guys. When you're a cop you can carry a gun...and you can use it. You can shoot people who are committing crimes." "Well..." and then he thought better of going into the fact that there were certain laws and regulations that governed the use of deadly force. It would sound too pedantic, and at the moment he wasn't sure he could remember what they all were. Plus, in the back of his mind he had a suspicion they were all just so much eyewash anyway. The shopping center on his left and the junior high on his right marked the edge of the urban sprawl that fringed Rochester Road. Now the businesses were smaller and farther apart and the streets that joined the road were made of snow and dirt. "You get to have a club too. And you can beat people with it -- cops get to beat people." "Well," he said, "they can't just beat people. I mean they can't just beat anybody they want." "Yes they can! They can do that if they want." "I think there's got to be a good reason." He paused. "They're supposed to have a good reason." "They can beat people," she said emphatically. "They're allowed." Her mouth, usually smiling, was firm and determined. They drove in silence for a moment, then she said "I'm glad we live in Rochester Hills. My dad says Rochester Hills is better than Troy because there aren't as many black people in Rochester Hills as there are in Troy. It's safer." At that moment he pulled on to her street, still covered with the stubborn snow that seemed to be lingering too long, even for a cold place like this. Before he reached her driveway some sign, a special light in a certain window perhaps, alerted her. She sprang forward in her seat, smiling again, and blurted "Mummy's home!" "Thank you," she said as she opened her door, "I had a wonderful time." She ran to the house. He waited a moment to make sure she was safe.